People have started to ignore me. This brings out two different sides of me. The one side feels a bit sorry for them because they clearly do not know what to say but the other brings out this feeling of annoyance that they just can't be normal with me. I'm still me. I'm still that great girl who has the most fantastic sense of humour (and a high opinion of herself!). It's the people who I do not expect to ignore me that angers me the most. Those that I have always been there for. The ones that have phoned me or texted most days for years. The ones I've sent flowers to when they have been ill, called or texted daily when things have been tough. Those are the worst 'friends'.
Then there are those that have been friends for years but do not keep in contact that much. These old friends seem to be the ones who really care and text early morning to see if I have been OK, drop little messages here and there throughout the day to say they are thinking about me. These absent friends have been supportive and understanding.
My true friends reacted in the only way I would expect. They said 'come round, we'll open a couple of bottles of wine' and we did. Champagne in fact and cancer wasn't mentioned once.
We've only lived in the area we live now for 16 months. We've got to know a few people and some have become very close friends. I've been surprised at the amount of people who have called round with flowers. It's not that I want a fuss. I'd rather no one know if I'm honest, but that's just never going to work because if you tell one, it spreads like wild fire. This is Wales, they love a gossip!
I'll never mention any of this on Facebook. I already shout at the PC at what some people put on there. Why do they feel the need to live out their whole life on Facebook? Every last thing is added. 'Going to town" selfie. 'Going to collect kids from school' selfie. 'Row with other half' - sad selfie. 'Kids are so ill' selfie of sick kids in bed. Well this ain't going to happen on my timeline. If I die then my hubby can put on, "Lynne's gone kicking and screaming to the other side". This may well take some time as he's never used Facebook or any other social media platform in his life, so at least it will keep him occupied for a while and stop him thinking about his huge loss and just how on earth he will manage to live without me.
'Going to the other side".. now that's another kettle of fish!!
2 comments:
love it. You are so right about it not being who think will be there for you, that are. I've had so much support from people I'd call acquaintances rather than friends yet some so called friends haven't ever asked how I am. I don't expect to be centre stage but it wouldn't hurt to just FB me and say hello occasionally.
Indeed! People surprise you don't they?!! Like we signed up for this crap in the first place!!!
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